you're my joy. ((:

2009-08-27T02:35:00.000+08:00

the pictures so sweet.
2 lovely couple.

but the feeling of my heart seems to be shivering.

should i give you my blessing?
or
what should i do ?

your words embarked inside my heart, make me smile.
but in the end, its another person now in your heart.

how heartless could you be.

2009-07-14T02:59:00.002+08:00

i wish i'm a mute, that i dont need to speak.
i wish i'm deaf, that i dont want to hear unwanted things.
i wish i was blind, to be blinded by people around me.

I think I'm tired,
I think I need a sunrise,
I'm tired of the sunset.

放手　
放開所有　
彼此更自由　
放手　
其實我絕非愛得不夠　
放手　
豁出所有　
還有這個好友　
已經　
已經足夠

2009-06-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

thank you all for the blessings, gifts, warm hugs and presence. (:

this night was definetly amazing.

everything went well.

danced, your arms around me.
our body arousing each other.
kissed a stranger.
oh man, i cant forget that feeling.

2009-06-10T00:39:00.002+08:00

There was this uncle and auntie.
They met thru Triathlon.
Uncle teaches auntie how to cycle.
Slowly, the auntie had feelings for the uncle.
They meet, she offers her help to the uncle, to dinners, to cycling gathering.
One day, they got together.
Holding hands down the road in Orchard Road, they make a good match.
The sweet couple takes 2 chairs to sit in the middle of the hall, with glasses of red wine under the big chandlier, how romantic.
And as each day ends before midnight, they kiss each other goodbye.

featuring Dadddy and Mummy L. ^^

2009-06-09T13:10:00.004+08:00

i miss you.
your presence.
i dreamt of you for the past few days.

i wish.
i wish you were here now.

hold me in your arms.
emptiness in the heart.

small eyes wangbadan rabbit with small nose and small lips. <3

2009-04-27T01:40:00.002+08:00

dearest sharon,
happy birthday to you.
although this year isnt a good and memorable birthday for you.
i hope you will pull it through.
please remember, we will always be there for you to make it through.

darling, remember to smile and no tears.

we love you. (: with lotsa loves.

2009-04-15T22:54:00.003+08:00

i was running in circles,

i hurt myself,

just to find the purpose.

i didnt deserve this,

but to me, you were perfect.

2009-04-12T01:02:00.003+08:00

DTRG

deryl teo rules girls
deryl teo rong gui
deryl teacher rides girls
deryl teaches Raffles Girls

hahahahahaha, oppps. :x

2009-03-31T00:44:00.002+08:00

3omarch.

sanjiemeis, sweethearts, girlfriends day !
pictures, polarids, hello kitty, laughter and joy.
with roti prata, bread and carrot cake.
and definetly, TV and laptop.

(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

my loves.

2009-03-24T00:38:00.002+08:00

when its gone, it won't come back.
it didnt feel good, not being loved back by the one you have been waiting for.
i felt that way when you were busy with your stuffs, before i ended this relationship.
now that you want everything back just like normal days..
sorry i cant do it anymore.

the love died.

i waited but nothing came out..

thankyou for the memories.

2009-03-18T13:04:00.002+08:00

you caused trouble.
you came and love, but left with a woman in the end.
you brought me smiles, make me end up with tears.
you make me fall in love, and you make me go out of love.
you make me lose people important in my life.
and all out of sudden, you expect me to forgive and to let you repent.

do you really is going to repent for your mistakes?
and where is the man i used to love so much now?
hes gone, because of your appearance.

2009-03-13T22:49:00.000+08:00

为爱情付出
为活着而忙碌
为什么而辛苦

我还不清楚怎样的速度
符合这世界变化的脚步
生活像等待创作的黏土

我要的幸福

2009-03-13T00:56:00.003+08:00

if you are here, reading. i really want you to know.

i didnt do anything behind your back.
it started last year when we went out, and you used my phone to sms/call him.
after so, he smsed back that night to check if you are still with me.
days goes by, he smses, but still, either i rejected or ignored.
im not some bitch/slut/3rd party that breaks people up.
AND i definetly WILL NOT like someone like HIM, and a MALAYSIAN.

i said whatever i have to.
please talk to me.
i'm sorry.

if i like him, and i want him, i would already agree to be his fling when i did not do it at all.
you are someone i trust and love so much..
i wont even think of having him as my boyfriend.

2009-03-08T02:26:00.002+08:00

thankyou for the lovely memories.
130508 - 080209

it has been a month.

although you didnt pop out the question.
but sometimes, i really wanted to know what answer will i give to you.

when i dont see you, i miss you.
when i see you, i want to hug you and start all over again.

this one whole month has been terrible.

happy times, sad times, memories, everything.

2009-03-02T01:36:00.001+08:00

我不是你想像那麽勇敢

多想让你保护能流泪一场

让我放下武装像个孩子一样

单纯的把爱情放在你心上

2009-02-20T16:24:00.002+08:00

I wanted you to be there when I fall

I wanted you to see me through it all

I wanted you to be the one I loved

I wanted you, I wanted you

I wanted you to hold me in my sleep

I wanted you to show me what I need

I wanted you to know just how down deep

I wanted you, I wanted you

2009-02-05T01:04:00.001+08:00

i could be everyone's happy pill.

but i can never be my own happy pill.

2009-01-29T00:05:00.002+08:00

someone said to me.

Put your head on my shoulder.
Hold me in your arms, baby.
Squeeze me, oh, so tight, show me
That you love me too.
I'm here if you need me.

will you say to me all this?

2009-01-18T01:32:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, SWEETHEART. (:

HAPPY 20TH TO YOU.

2009-01-17T23:18:00.002+08:00

as i look thru the days, you the nerdy girl with center parting and big glasses.
we play, we shop and pictures.
as we grow up, we had dreams of our own house by 21yrs old.
like you said, it will never come true.

did i do something wrong?
did i ? tell me.
perhaps i didnt realise the mistake.

did i lose you?
is the game of friendship over?

i lost you,
and also the game of friendship.
true ? false ?

i'm sorry if i did you wrong.
i ask for your forgiveness.

i missed you .
very much ...

想念是會呼吸的痛...

2009-01-15T23:22:00.003+08:00

HELLLO !!

did people miss me ?
sorry for not blogging. as i dont know what to type.
WAHHAHAHA.

CHINESE NEW YEAR is reaching ! (:
get ready to drink fizzy drinks, take red packet and BAI NIAN.
kekekeke.

and oh yes, new baby is here. ((:
SJM****G

hehe, wanna know?
find out yourself.

2008-12-27T13:52:00.003+08:00

you agreed to have lunch with us.
but yet, you rush off to some event.
once, twice, thrice.
enough is enough.

is your family the last finger of all ten fingers?
is family your last priority?
is that so?

empty promises is what you always give,
when everyone is always trying to give you 1 chance by another chance.
and when theres big event and i dont go, you say people.
so, what about your responsibility?

are you doing a son/brother's part of the family ?

2008-12-26T22:48:00.001+08:00

in her whole 19years,
For the first time,
she ate on her own,
took the bus on her own,
shop on her own.

the first day you left,
i miss you.

2008-12-18T02:58:00.004+08:00

for the first time i saw.

someone so romantic.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

loving you like i always do, babylove.

my mind came to see this.

I wanna chill @ a resort...looking at the sunset, holding beer in one of my hands, my gf's hand in the other, hug her, squeeze her cute butt and kiss her little lips.

:X:X::X

2008-12-09T23:38:00.003+08:00

一个又一个。
多一次的分手。
他们放手了。
你们真的要这样吗？
真的会快乐吗？

帶我走到遙遠的以後
帶走我一個人自轉的寂寞
帶我走就算我的愛你的自由都將成為泡沫
我不怕帶我走

you're leaving, and we will miss you.
although no long talks whenever we see each other, but msn, we crap alot.
thank you for listening sometimes to my grumbles of ch.
thank you for the one and only photo we taken of the whole year we know each other.
and
thank you for taking care of keith when im not there.
thank you for sharing the bed with me in disneyland hotel.
thankyou for everything.

the best photo of the year.
the C's.
Carissa & Clara.

2008-12-04T15:36:00.003+08:00

This is the sweetie that first came to Pet Society.

He was still very shame to kiss Nellie, his Girlfriend.

keke.

After Nellie changed his life, he became more active and happier after the Makeover. (:

See, They look so sweet now.

Proudly presenting Sweetie and Nellie.

this is a story of
a boy named sweetie,
and
a girl named nellie.

2008-11-12T02:40:00.005+08:00

during the process of talking back, tears.
kch drew something to make me smile back.

Chee Hoo says (2:38 AM):
isn't this nice?
Chee Hoo says (2:39 AM):
i wished we were there now
Chee Hoo says (2:39 AM):
our feeling will be as calm as the sea.

thank you for making me :D again.

2008-11-12T00:59:00.002+08:00

if one day, we were to part. you will be free from freedom.
if one day i left you, you wouldnt tear.
if one day i'm gone, you would still live like your normal living.

but

i'm gone.
i'm crying.
and i won't be able to live without you.

i'm still holding on.

2008-11-05T01:11:00.001+08:00

hellloha my loves:)))

im back. hehs.
pictures from taiwan is uploaded in facebook.
please do take a look.
if want to see, please add me in facebook wor~

tata!

2008-10-27T01:47:00.002+08:00

TAIWAN ~

I'M COMING! (((((((((((:

tags replied -

CARISSA{: when you go taiwan, dont forget to come back and go HK with me!!!! :D:D
yay! loooking forward babe! pyjamas party! kekeke.

Melaniee: haha. nice layout. i saw my photos !! rmb my present =x
of course. love you mah. like you meh, only your photos.

candy: HELLO....change liao lo.love other people la.dont love me la.angry you la.GURR!!!go TW and HK must buy present give me la...hahah
no change at all. you have your RAIN tooo. twin love you more than anyone. (:

2008-10-22T03:12:00.002+08:00

congrats on the newly wed, Clarence and Grace. (:

and the trip to taiwan and hongkong is coming soooon.

so peeps, remember to missss me~
or else, no prezzies for euuuu.

hehe, my new skin with the people i . (:

2008-10-12T23:58:00.003+08:00

HAPPPY FIVE MONTHS, BABYLOVE.

this isn't just another love story.
because happiness comes more ahead.

and i'm loving you till the end of time.

Love has no desire but to fulfill itself. To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night. To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving. ~Kahlil Gibran

2008-10-08T00:22:00.002+08:00

Joke of the Weekend.

(1)
A & B goes to the SUPERMAN shop.
A saw her friend C and chatted along.
Salesgirl D was guarding the shop.
talk and talk along..
A askes, :" here got sell tweety bird stuff meh?"
Salesgirl D immediately replied: " neh, it's behind.

B & C laughed together,
and A was so embrassed.

hahahaha.

(2)

S K Y went to the arcades for sweet land.
the level was at B plus.
after few times of checker shoot,
the last 4th day before the $10 goes..

dang dang dang ding..

they hit JACKPOT !

and

THEY WON A BIG YELLOW BANANANA!

2008-10-01T15:52:00.001+08:00

1st october.

children's day.
hari raya day.

& lastly.

Justin Koh's birthday.

Happy Birthday korkor.

2008-09-26T18:21:00.002+08:00

today is everyone's happy day.
the hari raya season, the f1 race, all out.
but me, alone.

today when i needed you, you're elsewhere.
never want to be without you,
but i guess i had to be alone without you.

亲爱的，你知道我要的是什么吗？
我今天，真的很想见到你。

今天，
明天，
后天，
我都是一个人。

2008-09-21T22:32:00.001+08:00

girls jsut wanna have fun. (:P

why?

cause theres 36 pics of webcaming photos with sweetheart!

lovelovelovelove.

2008-09-16T10:16:00.002+08:00

pictures be out soon yo ! (:

sanjiemeis! ((((((((((((((((((:

2008-09-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

its been so long..

but nothing seems to get you out of my head.

2008-09-03T12:52:00.001+08:00

1o more days to 4th anniversary.

15 more days to our 4years friendship.

lovelove. (:

2008-08-25T23:57:00.004+08:00

HELLLLO !!!

this is my second baby, my daughter.

Dolly Kan Mei Mei.

ps: MEHMEH, see.. i love you lehhhs. ((:

and this is my first baby,

SPECIAL Kan Da Tou. ((:

looks like his daddy.

keke.

wheee, happpy family . (((:

and sorry for the lack of updates because i have beeen editing photos.

(((((((((:

DJ WHO ; my addiction.

US ; opening of Changi Airport Terminal 3

the first trip to MOS.

and not forgetting my dearest darlingsxzxz.

sept is coming, darlingsxzxz.

ie lurbeexz euu allie.

2008-08-18T16:02:00.000+08:00

when she tear after her daughter left, i cried.

because
i rather be the one crying then to see you cry.

it hurts my heart.

i love you mummy.
please be strong.
let us both be strong. (:
dont wanna see you tear for me whenever we part from each other.

2008-08-16T11:49:00.002+08:00

sometimes its so heartbreaking not seeing you.
yes, im not understanding enough but i missed you.
thats all.

im sorry if i always want to let go, but
im still hanging on,
cause i wanna last with you
& you shall be my future and last.

thats how important you are.

im tired.

2008-08-14T23:20:00.005+08:00

where is my home..
tell me where.

family love.

be it a big family, a small family.

its still beautiful.

warmth, care&concern, love.

where's mine ?

sorry, but i have none of these.

this place isnt my home anymore.

so quiet.

tired of cold war.

i yearn for a happy family.

where is it ?

will i ever get that ?

the answer is NO.

wont come.

never comes.

will not come.

cause the word FAMILY seems to disappear for the past 10years.

i seem to be like a orphan,

or a single parent's child.

2008-07-31T00:50:00.002+08:00

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you.

something's burning in us.

2008-07-27T16:58:00.001+08:00

her little boy.
her xiangxiang.
her cheeky little boy.
her baby.
her babylove.
her honeystar.

thankyou 13mAy.
thankyou fb! (:
thankyou zoosk.

2008-07-22T22:55:00.002+08:00

妈妈，你最近还好吗？
有时候，真的很想你。
知道你在家很寂寞。
好像陪着你。
每次看到你一个人从地铁站或当我离开你的时候，我好不想离开你。
对不起。

住了十八年，

我好想知道，为什么是我？
为什么，是我的家庭是被破坏而不是完美的。
为什么？为什么？为什么？
告诉我。

没有了弟弟的欢笑，没有了家庭的快乐。
我突然觉得家里好安静。

为了你，为了他，我只好忍下去。

妈妈。。谢谢你带给我的爱。

我爱你。

2008-07-06T16:51:00.002+08:00

the best of the best. (:
had a small shopping spree with baby after his DJ playing at youth park.
hehe.
and HE DOESNT GRUMBLES.
lovelovelovelovelovelove.

TATA!!!

2008-06-30T22:59:00.002+08:00

it's a day of different kind of mood today.
i was happily going to work because its FIRST DAY !!!!
after long, i felt so sleepy.
but i tried to do stuffs.
met baby for subWAY before going to lesson.
simply so tired and sick of school seriously but yah, dearest drag me down.
he left after that.
ending of classes, i roam around the streets.
i felt worthless.
somehow, its seems like theres no love in my life.
nothing is there.
i walk the streets. i listen to music,
walk through the road when cars were coming towards me.
cars honk, but i didnt care much.
i wish i could end my life just like that.

what should i do ..

2008-06-18T16:50:00.002+08:00

yesterday was out with hamy and lil princess for dinner.
we dine at MOF, Ministry of Food. (:
goood food, good ambience, and nice people with lots of laughter and joy.

pictures will be up soon.
till then.

(:

2008-06-14T00:18:00.003+08:00

its the 13th.

the first month with yoooouuuuu.

hes the first guy that celebrated my birthday in my whole 19 years.
hes the first guy that brought me to restaurants.
hes the first guy that called me and sang a birthday song when the clock striked 12.
hes the first guy that wrote a lovely card that made me touched and dropped tears.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CLARA SWEETIE.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

baby, love you manymany.
thankyou for everything you have done in this 1 month.
thankyou for making me smile everyday.
thankyou love.
thankyou.

2008-06-10T23:30:00.003+08:00

i dont know what to do.
i dont know what to say.
i dont know what i want eversince some people left.
the feeling so different.
so hard to find it back.

4 more days to the big day, and i feel nothing nor excited.

where are the people who once were in my life ?

2008-06-10T00:04:00.002+08:00

When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly, I imagined I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand, to hold you
I must open up my hands
And watch you rise

I can't live
if living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
if living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore

2008-06-06T01:05:00.002+08:00

never sick and tired of you.
never sick of looking at you.
never sick of taking on a 1 hour mrt ride everyday just to see you.
never sick of loving you.

the best part is your eyes looking into me,
and saying i love you.

how wonderful are you, love.

2008-05-29T22:53:00.001+08:00

did you ever ..
have you ever ..
perhaps you didnt ..

or was it me that wanted everything to be perfect ?

2008-05-25T23:44:00.003+08:00

it was the very first time that my boyfriend drives me home.
for the 2 days, i slept with the boyfriend.
1 night at my place, 1 night at his place.
for 50 hours, we stick together.
never left his presence before.
feels so attached to you.
heartbreaking to leave.
heartbreaking to say goodbye.
heartbreaking to kiss goodbye.

Chee Hoo a.k.a. Chee Who? --> Trance is hypnotic says (1:24 AM):
my dear
.x. LALA. .x. a moment like this. says (1:24 AM):
yahh
Chee Hoo a.k.a. Chee Who? --> Trance is hypnotic says (1:24 AM):
u're mine
Chee Hoo a.k.a. Chee Who? --> Trance is hypnotic says (1:24 AM):
i wouldn't let u go
Chee Hoo a.k.a. Chee Who? --> Trance is hypnotic says (1:24 AM):
love u

2008-05-20T23:49:00.001+08:00

When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
Silver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
ohh...
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

2008-05-11T22:13:00.003+08:00

people come and go.

you came and i let go.
once again.
1 mistake done, there will be second, third or even fourth.
cant imagine if history will become the future.
and everything is gone.

when you're gone,
so miserable.
so heart-aching.
so alone.

no chocolate bars.
nobody sitting at the sofa.
no disturbance.
no cookies.
no cakes.
no macdonalds.
no lunch breaks.
no calls.

and i missed some of those.

the 10th.
the second month anniversary.
only one.
but not two.

sitting at one corner,
drinking drinking.

dancing with no partner.

2008-04-27T22:19:00.003+08:00

it started at the age of 13.

so many boyfriends, but none were the best.
while the best ones had to leave.

the puppy love, a ugly chap, he came for S.
the busy studying student who couldnt come out to meet.
the little playboy who got my number from icq.
the one who makes me realise the word L.O.V.E. but yearns for that too. (too much porn isnt good for health, boys. )
the young innocent chubby looking boy with red cheeks. (; ( too good to be true. )
the old school boyfriend which loooks after his girlfriend and not let her wear low-cuts.
wangbadan the bad egg.
the all-day-stay-at-home bf who cooks, work and smoke. ( irrestable & heart-breaking love)
the pennliess policeman who rides and sings but wants S with girls and sweet-talkings.
the chubby boy who yearns to have riches and i will sing, so sick of love song, so sick of pohpoh.
the one that sings, composes, bake and cooks and do magic shows that shows love, care and concern.

so whose the playboy, the one for love, and the one for money ?

all? some? half of it.

have you ever had this kind of boyfriends, girlies ?

2008-04-27T22:14:00.000+08:00

Love takes time
To heal when you're hurting so much
Couldn't see that I was blind
To let you go
I can't escape the pain inside
'Cause love takes time
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna be here alone

Losing my mind from this hollow in my heart
Suddenly I'm so incomplete
Lord I'm needing you now
Tell me how to stop the rain
Tears are falling down endlessly

2008-04-06T16:18:00.002+08:00

yesterday was fun !
awwwww. i love it .
esp with girlfriends and beloved baby.
oh ya. THE BIG SISTER IS ATTACHED !
woohooo. 3 CHEERS TO THAT !

baby your my destiny
you and i were meant to be
with all my heart and soul
i give my love to have and hold
and as far as i can see
you were always meant to be my destiny

i wanted some one like you
someone that i could hold on to
and give my love until the end of time

but forever was just a word, just a word
something i'd only heard about
but now your always there for me
when you say forever i'll believe

2008-03-04T00:18:00.006+08:00

I start to miss some people.

anrina (hamy) + guying (meow, xiaogongzu)

this is 2 people that made a great impact in my life for the past 9 years of my life in wcc.

they were there for me nevertheless, praying for my needs, taking care of me,

making me into someone i'm today.

and i thank God for them as my sisters of Christ.

170305

melanie (sweetheart, yang meh meh, ang ang)

the one that never fails to cheers me up.

the one that puts a smile on me.

the one always there for me when im down.

180904

sanjiemeis (katie, smallest of the 3, my darlingg)

the youngest of all.

loves to doll up. loves drinking. loves youtube and goes gaga over taiwan movies.

sylvia, wanli ( little devil, darling of mine )

the one that always forgets me when she needs people to go out with.

the one that pampers her girlfriends.

the one that likes to read comics.

the 3 girls yearns for a dream of a house to stay together when we're 21.

different character, different dreams, different aims.

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the family that was once called crazyfamily.

5 years of friendship.

fun together. sleep together. eat together.

but now,

gone.

everyone separated.

wherever we are, i hope the bond is still there.

2008-03-03T23:21:00.002+08:00

when he says i love you into my ears, i feel ticklish.
when i sang sick of love song, so sick of pohpoh, he went =,=

the more you go -,- , the more i laugh.

this is happiness.

If you want me to stay
I never leave
If you want me to stay
We'll always be
If you want me to stay
Love endlessly
If you want me to stay
If you want me to stay
I'll never leave you

2008-02-24T22:52:00.002+08:00

i feel bad when i bully you.
i just want more love from you.
just dont wish to let go of anything.
i hope to change for the better.
im the pampered girl.

i thank you for being patient with me.
i thank you for controlling my temper.
i thank you for accepting my " da xiao jie " pi qi.
i thank you for being such a dear to me.
i thank you for your love.
i thank you for everything you have done for me.

i love you, dearest.

2008-02-18T23:42:00.004+08:00

ALRIGHT!
BABY BOUGHT ME THE HELLLO KITTY LIGHT.
((((((((((((((:
love it love it love it. LOVE IT!

oh yes, i love BAOBEI tooo.
she showers me with love gifts.

being in your embrace is LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

he's my fredderick baby.
i'm your one and only sweet little babylicious.

2008-02-16T01:05:00.002+08:00

alright, didnt get to meet up with dearest miss yip.
but i got to meet up with DEAREST BAOBEI & SYLVIA DARLING and not forgetting NANLING SWEETIE. (:

pizza with baobei, taking of neoprints and catching lil toys from the vending machine from the arcades was simply LOVE.

& window shopping with darling too.

little actions with no flowers from baby really makes my day.
but a little love from baby that he called me from his office to say HAPPY VALENTINE'S day . (:

i miss you, punky love love.

2008-02-14T00:15:00.002+08:00

school was a good start with cheerful students and teachers. (:
baby is out station to pulau sudong for training for 3 days starting from today.
so that means i cannot see him for 5 pathetic days.
only can wait for his calls or smses.
he's sleeping on the harbour staring at stars with no bed in such a windy night.
*sayangs baby.
and later on, (12.15am) valentine's day, im spending with dearest janetsa sharon yip. [;

i love you baby.

2008-02-11T13:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL.

sorry for the lack of updates.
superbly busy for the past few weeks.

this new year is greatly spend with the boyfriend<3, girlfriends and family!
not forgetting MAHJONG aunties and ANGBAOS! (:

i love you all.

shall update again.

2008-02-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

To the ex boyfriend,

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. (:

2008-01-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

suddenly my heart went heavy.
i feel like crying.
i dont know what happen to me.
i feel uncomfortable.

sense of security is needed.

2008-01-18T08:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY SWEETHEART! <3

2007-12-26T00:33:00.000+08:00

SUPPORT http://www.xanga.com/candypulps . (:

what a happy christmas i have this year.
thankyou my loves.

2007-12-23T23:20:00.000+08:00

time flies.
it has been a year.
tmr's Christmas Eve.
everything changes.

i thank Him that i met you in my life.
thanks for everything.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE ! (:

2007-12-11T15:31:00.000+08:00

Coffee black, cigarettes,start this day,
like all the rest,
First thing every morning that I do,
is start missing you

Some broken hearts never mend,
some memories never end,
some tears will never dry,
my love for you will never die

Rendezvous in the night,
A willing man to hold me tight,
But in the middle of love's embrace,
I see you're face

2007-12-05T15:28:00.001+08:00

browsing thru the emails, i saw yours.
those emails which you wrote, when we were still together.
in the emails that you would call me, baby.
emails that you tend to want to have breakfast, spend time with me,
saying how much you missed me.
the emails saying that you would wait for me.
but now, the word " waiting" is no longer there.
you're with someone.

its raining now.
i wanna go and play in the rain.
i feel like tearing.
but i couldnt do it.

the love we had, yes, it was taken granted.
but i didnt mean it, i had no choice but to do it.

baby, you had been missed badly.

2007-12-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates.
due to com breakdowns and also laziness of updating.

today, i get to see you. but maybe for the last time.
perhaps, im always out to overseas studying in your eyes.
the same answer everytime.

i saw the half of you.

yes, i broke down when i went off from your place.
seeing the eyes of your mother, i missed your family.
yes, i do.
the warmth, the mahjong days and the breakfast,lunch,dinner days.

and yes, i missed you too.

2007-11-19T22:05:00.000+08:00

thankyou love for being there for me when im down/low.
thankyou love for your company.
thankyou love for always listening to my sorrows.
thankyou love for everything.
thankyou love for telling me that we can live our life without him.
thankyou love for alll.

& my love,
you should know who you are.
*grins*

misss you darling. (:

PLEASE NOTE THAT, YOU'RE THE BEST ! (:

2007-11-16T14:43:00.000+08:00

everything in my life still consist you.
the passwords of everything is still under your name.

How can I be smiling when you're gone

Will I be strong enough to carry on?

Tell me you're not leaving

Say you've changed your mind now,

That I am only dreaming,

That this is not goodbye,

This is starting over

2007-11-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

我伪装着
不露痕迹的想在你身边
静静的陪着看着天边
骑着单车
往前行进着
某个路口爱在等着

你往前走
不回头看了记忆的笑脸
缓缓的敲着我的琴键
我不舍得
让你孤单单的
我爱你的心牵挂着

心不再拚命躲不去害怕结果
假设有个以后你会这么说
一直想跟你说幸福不再溜走
下个路口你会看见爱
有美丽笑容

爱转角遇见了谁
是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪

爱转角遇见了谁
是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪
不让你掉眼泪
现在永远
你就是我就是我的美

爱转角遇见了谁
是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街能不能有我来陪

爱转角遇见了谁
是否不让你流泪
将寂寞孤单作废让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪不让你掉眼泪
现在永远
你就是我就是我的美

2007-11-08T22:39:00.000+08:00

2007-11-07T00:08:00.000+08:00

THANKYOU FOR YOUR LOVELY TAG.

BUT I DONT NEEEED ANY COMMENTS FROM YOU.

AND PLEASE NOTE THAT.

I DONT NEEED YOU.

I DONT GAIN SYMPATHY FROM PEOPLE.

I AM VERY HAPPY NOW.

JUST THAT YOU DONT GET TO SEE IT.

THANKS

&

GOOODBYE.

2007-11-05T17:41:00.000+08:00

我想问
你今天幸福吗?
我想问
你现在过得开心吗?

2007-11-04T22:21:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wish i dont hear any news about you.
but sometimes,
i want to know a little of you that knows that you're fine.

2007-11-02T10:30:00.000+08:00

Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

Chorus:
I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
There is something left in my head

Chorus

Yes i know

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

Chorus

That's why you go away I know

2007-10-29T23:18:00.000+08:00

last saturday night with hamy + meow to suntec and dinner.
sunday church with hamy.
the present hamy made for us. (:

the three of us. (:

2007-10-29T00:23:00.000+08:00

boy, i missed you.
not today, not yesterday but every single day.

i love you
所以只能说声对不起
任何藉口都没有

i love you
已来不及
好好去珍惜
后悔很多

不该让你无辜流下失措的泪
心碎认识你陌生的世界
空气中回荡的笑语早已经断绝
多想能在和你梦里爱多一次

很沉重看你走着每一步
它应该是幸福的路
狠心推开你
像你离得无反顾

你身上纹着我给你的笑
对我绝美的惩罚
想问已无法
原来曾经拥有过还比失去痛苦

i love you
对你的挚爱从不曾改变
要你快乐

i love you
好想对你说却来不及
后悔已太多

不该让你无辜流下失措的泪
心碎认识你陌生的世界
空气中回荡的笑语早已经断绝
多想能在和你梦里爱多一次

很沉重看你走着每一步
它应该是幸福的路
狠心推开你
是挽不回的错误

你心上纹着我给你的笑
对我绝美的惩罚
想问我无法
原来曾经拥有过远比失去痛苦

我身上永远烙着你的笑
那么绝美的惩罚
想问我无法
原来曾经拥有
过还比失去痛苦

2007-10-17T19:19:00.000+08:00

the love story of A, B and C.

A loves B dearly, but B never loves A back... and loves C alot...

even so, it doesn't mean that C and B will be together happily....

2007-10-17T02:08:00.000+08:00

have you forgotten of our song " love me" ?
have you?
have you forgotten of the story of the fish and the water?
why now did the fish went away?
why now the fish wants to swim to a bigger aquarium?
is the fish getting tired of staying in a tank?

the tank is left empty now.

2007-10-15T16:08:00.000+08:00

HURRRRAY.

SOMEONE IS IN LOVE.
BUT DEFINETLY NOT ME.

THANKS FOR THE TEARS. (:
and thanks for letting me know that, I'M DREAMING all along for you to come back.

gooodbye my lover.

2007-10-14T00:14:00.000+08:00

i realised after talking to meow yesterday from 1130pm to 0530am,
i felt so much love from God and her.
we spoke about you and him. everything about the two of you.
and lastly, the songs and praises for God.

God, thank you for showering your love for me. ((:

today, i overslept. so i didnt go to work.
went out to meet hamy and den, back to church.
WOW! i feeel overjoyed!
after service, went to suntec.
had dinner, shopped, cam-whored. (:

after that, homesweethome.

to hamy & meow, you're the best companions of my life.
the laughter we had, the little gifts and huggs.
thankyou for everything.
THANK GOD FOR BRINGING US TOGETHER. <3

2007-10-11T02:03:00.000+08:00

Belle says (1:59 AM):
k... wat if daddy and him
Belle says (1:59 AM):
who would u listen to ?

C l a r A ` though the world may fall, i will never let you go. says (1:59 AM):
hahhaa.
C l a r A ` though the world may fall, i will never let you go. says (1:59 AM):
because of this problem.
C l a r A ` though the world may fall, i will never let you go. says (1:59 AM):
we brokeup.
Belle says (1:59 AM):
so u listened to daddy ?
C l a r A ` though the world may fall, i will never let you go. says (2:00 AM):
i brokeup with him cause of daddy.
C l a r A ` though the world may fall, i will never let you go. says (2:00 AM):
daddy kept saying him.
C l a r A ` though the world may fall, i will never let you go. says (2:00 AM):
but inside my heart, when we brokeup.
C l a r A ` though the world may fall, i will never let you go. says (2:00 AM):
i felt pain.
Belle says (2:00 AM):
yeah...... :(
Belle says (2:00 AM):
dun cry lah
C l a r A ` though the world may fall, i will never let you go. says (2:01 AM):
he said. why couldnt i make my own decision.
C l a r A ` though the world may fall, i will never let you go. says (2:01 AM):
when i made up decision, its too late.
Belle says (2:03 AM):
cant blame him either, he loves u... u r his daughter...
Belle says (2:04 AM):
sometimes, in life, its hard to make a reasonable decision, suitable for all...
Belle says (2:04 AM):
we have to break some hearts...
Belle says (2:04 AM):
in order to create some balance...

baby, did you know that i miss you terribly?

2007-10-09T02:06:00.000+08:00

3 days in kl.
now its 2.06am.
9 october 2007

the day we were together last year.

mum asked why am i not sleeping?
i didnt answer.
but the answer was, cause i was thinking of you.
and i want to think of you till i would just close my eyes and sleep.

what will happen if i were to agree to go to malaysia with you few months ago?
will you still be going?

keith brought dunkin' donuts for cari, if i were to get you a gift.
will you accept?

2007-10-05T01:09:00.000+08:00

FCUKSHYT!

WHY DID I THINK OF YOU NOW?
WHYWHYWHYWHYWHY?

2007-10-04T23:56:00.000+08:00

haloha.

today was shoppping day with elanie! [;
bought 2 tops and a diva heart-shape necklace.
loving it. [;

it says TRAINEE POLE DANCER.
and
I WANT TO KNOW, HOW SWEET A KISS COULD BE.

had waffle icecream that has strawberry cheese cake from venezia
and elanie had cookies and cream waffle cone
and it cost us 10bucks!

not as good as gelare but still cheaper i guess.

alrighty. getting ready for KL trip. <3

2007-10-03T02:06:00.000+08:00

ru guo you yi tian, ni zao dao ni de xin fu.
qu ai ta ba. wo hui hen kai xin de.

be it,
moving on or not moving on,
please remember,
i still love you.

cousin said.
we had fate to meet.
but we dont have the fate to be together.

perhaps, i would find someone i love.
perhaps, i wouldnt find someone that i want to love.

cause you're still the one.

2007-09-29T10:08:00.001+08:00

the thought of seeing your baby girl later gives me the trembles.
her eyes has your eyes.
the thought of going back to the house that i live last time, leaves memories.
the buses and cabs. leaves the route to your place.
the thought of seeing you on the streets makes me tear.
but i'll make it thru.
without you, i will adapt.

i miss you.
i miss your parents.
i miss every moment when theres you.

its the weeekend today.
and the place i should be at now, should be your place.
perhaps you're still asleep now.
perhaps, you're eating breakfast now.
but now, im not.

perhaps, i shouldnt have suggested having supper with you.
perhaps, today we are still friends contacting.
perhaps perhaps.

it hurts to see you laugh at me when i was without you.

2007-09-28T11:48:00.000+08:00

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know
If I let you go?

2007-09-27T13:25:00.000+08:00

days are passing by.
it's coming to the end of the month.
Insomnia. I got sleepless nights.
I dont know why, but i just couldnt sleep.
I lost my appetite of eating.
its either 1 meal of plain bread and a cup of milk, if not no food.
and i lost 5kg.

life seems dull to me.
no colors. nothing.

i remembered the hair when we were going back to your place
after getting our phone in the cab, and you asked:

YOU: ni kai xin ma?
ME: nodded my head, [;
YOU: hai yao shen me?
ME: bu yao le.

i thought for it for a second today.
i should have told you..
wo yao he ni yong yuan zai yi qi.
but today, we're not together anymore.

i stopped cutting my hair.
it became long.
but you're not coming back.

so long, goodbye my love.

2007-09-23T23:49:00.000+08:00

True lovers never take it slowly
When they've found the one and only
Nothing can replace this feeling
Knowing someone loves you

It's painted with the pain and glory
Taken from an old sad story
Laying down my life before me
Fearing the unknown

Sharing never showed me much appeal
And now I'm only praying it's for real

So how does it feel
When I hold you in my arms
And you're lying next to me
Never wanting you to leave
Until I'll tell you how it feels
To be cradled like my dreams
And to know that you love me
No more wasting time in asking other people
How does it feel
How does it feel

Never taken you for granted
You give me everything I wanted
I'm so afraid that I might lose you
But time will let us see
If everything is real I'm feeling
Well maybe we've been only dreaming
And if it's gone i'd die to save it
Cause baby I believe

Nothing in the world could make it right
Cause baby loving you brings me to life

2007-09-23T00:52:00.000+08:00

i dont wish for much.
i just want you to come back.
i just want to be with you.
i just want to be beside you wherever you are.
i just want to stay at home with you.
i just want to have the weekends spend with you.
i just want to be in bed with you when you're tired.
i just want to massage your body when you're tired.

thats what i wish for now..
nothing else but just those.

i choose to stay with you.
i just want to.
i wouldnt want to be alone without you.
i dont wish to care about opinions given by daddy.

baby, i just want to be with you.

the very first song you sang to me.

xiao bao bao, kuai shui jiao.
xian zai yi jing hen wan liao,
zai bu shui jiao, bian xiong mao,
bian ni xiong mao, mei ren yao.

2007-09-17T23:53:00.000+08:00

SANJIEMEIS IS LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

till the end,

that never ends.

a lifetime.